The Fear and Dilemma

The fear of messing up, that engulfs my psyche 
Being aggressive is not so much, a counter to it.
Every move I play, every word I say,
I know, will be judged,
based on my roleplay.
If we are but a character in our own novels,
how capable are we to become the lead?
preferred by our choice.
Do we bend the story, kill the king?
set the Damsel in distress,
Only to have her rescued and marry her in a palace?

What do we do that makes it ours?
what should we do to keep it fair?
If Venus had come to earth, and we bowed before her,
would’ve been simple, not much unfair.
For I wouldn’t have to play always by the book,
For I wouldn’t have to seek new ways to look cool.
Things are changing and I’m ageing as well,
I know not much mistakes, I can afford before farewell. 
Judgement will be passed and nothing can be done,
I may be conscientious but am I really beloved.
How do I actualize, in Maslow’s pyramid?
Do I follow the Buddha and skip the in-between?
There’s been a hollow in my heart, for far too long now,
in the Quest to fill the void, I need to go on an adventure.
It is this that I have trouble with,
why do I have to be alone, in my own story?
This is a war that must be fought
For every inch of her precious soul, a pacifist will die alone.
A nice one will give up, a bad one will hurt,
How do I be one, who wins in the end,
How do I write it so it ends up being fair?

The damsel, I had made her in a poetic regret,
For she didn’t wish it to be rescued by me,
For she didn’t have to be in danger to begin.
How do I rescue her when she’s not in danger?
How do I make her fall in love?
When there’s little I can offer.
Leave it to fate or should I build it bit slow,
Or should I give up on my own novel,
As I’m not heroic enough of a character? 
Decisions that make us Kings, lead to the bloody boulevard
How can I be so heartless to soak her in blood?

Windows 11: A TikToker’s version of Windows 10

On this Tuesday morning, I jumped out of the bed and straight ahead went to check my PC health, whether I can install Windows 11 or not. While most OEM installed laptops bought within last 3 years should qualify for this upgrade, for Desktop computers it could be tricky. I know a lot of schools and computers that run decade old hardware, they most probably won’t be able to upgrade to Windows 11.

First thing I found was, TPM 2.0 was not enabled in my computer, that’s easy, went to BIOS settings and enabled it, I’m not running NVME SSD on PCIE 4 slots, so it didn’t complicate things.

Next, I got, Secure boot is not enabled. Now this complicates thing. I’m running on Legacy so for me to enable Secure boot, first I have to disable CSM, now to disable CSM first I need to convert my file system from MBR to GPT. all of these steps come with precautions.

Now, fortunately I wasn’t dual booting with any other OS at the moment so I went through all these steps and with a bit of luck didn’t encounter any problem while converting my OS drive to GPT.

Nothing could stop me anymore, so finally I installed Windows 11.

But now, what do I get in return?
— Start Menu doesn’t make sense anymore.
— Right click is horribly nerfed.
— Shift + Right click is fuckin gone.
— as Simple as Renaming file is now restricted in Quick access.
— Ryzen machines are slowing down by at least 15%

You can’t place the taskbar icons wherever you want. The widget thing, what the heck is that?? I’ll give someone a coke on a hot day to explain to me what that thing is. I mean on Windows 10 the weather on taskbar actually made some sense but this is shit.

After a day of use in my personal machine, I have already shifted the start button to Left position, otherwise every time you open a window start menu will keep moving to a different location.

Overall, I feel, Windows 11 is bright, colorful, dumb, and almost like a TikToker’s edition of Windows 10.